Dear Great Friend
Being a
great friend is a burden.
You enjoy
giving your time to loved ones only to receive less than half of the effort or
love back (as you interpret love). You take the time to understand how each
individual operates, because you, great friend, realize that each individual is unique. You do small gestures out of
the kindness of your heart because if you pass by that hello kitty bag and don’t
get it for that one person (you love) who is obsessed with hello kitty, part of
you actually feels guilty and silly knowing you could have instead put a smile on
that loved ones’ face. Nothing feels better than putting a smile on another’s
face. You don’t even stop to think would this person do this for me? Because that isn't what matters to you, it never was.
You look
forward to lunches and brunches and actually ask ‘how are you!’ because you want to hear the answer. Whether it is a
good or bad answer, you actually for some reason give a shit. Nothing about
this loved one benefits your life in a way of you gaining material or valuable
things from this person. You actually probably lose sleep, money, and time over
these people but it doesn't matter because it’s all worth it to you. Having these
loved ones in your life brings you joy. So why would you simply remove them if
they weren't benefiting you in a way that’s tangible? You wouldn't of course!
You hear
good news from these people and you are just as happy if not happier for them.
You aren't competing or secretly wishing them bad or hoping you could have came
out first. You want their success to shine because you already understand that
your time will come when its right. You smile for your friend, great friend,
because you mean it.
You plan
get-togethers and your little joyous self is thoughtful enough to include all
walks of friends. People from A B and C are often brought together in your home
or your agenda, because for you, great friend, you just love having all your
loved ones around you at the same time and actually enjoy when two of your
loved ones start loving the others. Togetherness is fun.
You love
surprising your loves with little things that say a lot. Whether it’s a tiny
wine glass for 50 cents that you saw and had to get for the one who loves
collecting wine glasses or just simply make a card for a birthday year after
year ‘just because’ its tradition. You get so much pleasure out of being a
great friend to those you love because by nature, great friend, you can’t help it;
you are caring, loyal, loving, thoughtful, and kind. You love to love. It makes
you happy. You don’t understand when others are so comfortable being selfish and
distant and trying to make it to the ‘top’ of whatever. For you, great friend, you've always envisioned success with your loved ones there to share it with.
You attend
gatherings when invited, you don’t ditch or make lame excuses. You’re truthful
about places you hate and games you won’t ever play but almost always you are
there, dependable if needed and available if asked. You get joy by being around
others so its rare to see you alone, great friend. You go out of your way and often wish you
could say no without feeling guilt. You don’t even realize when you put others
before you, time after time. You literally have to ask yourself often questions
in your head before doing things that others would never even consider asking.
For others a simple no suffices almost always.
Your heart
is enormous and your feelings are felt too deeply. You, great friend, have a burden.
As you know
great friend, you are the one often let down, hurt, disappointed, holding false
expectations and feeling simply down too often. You have too much time on your
hands and you think too deep. Your caring heart needs to breathe. You must
force yourself to say no to others when your heart actually wants to be there.
Why? Because great friend, you must learn to protect yourself.
You have to
put yourself first and be an asshole from time to time. In the end, you’ll see,
the ones who want to be there regardless if you’re great or not, will be there.
You cannot be the best friend for every friend. You have your own agenda, too.
So... you realize you have (close) friends who do not include you in their other
circles? Oh well, they have no obligation to because you simply had no
obligation to include them. You feel left out and
hurt because you CHOOSE to include everyone whereas others just don’t care to
for whatever reason you’ll never understand, great friend, because you are
wired differently. To you, it’s the more the merrier and your friends all meeting
is fun. For others, they enjoy keeping their circles apart.
You’re gonna
wish from time to time you were wired opposite and could go on about life not
giving a damn, but there is a reason that you don’t know yet as to why you are
this way and care so deeply. Not everyone deserves your love and you must learn to
choose who is worth giving your love to.
A ‘friend’ who consistently is there for you
only when it is convenient for them is not a great friend like you, it is
simply a friend nothing more nothing less. A friend who comes around only when
it benefits them in some way is just annoying. Why even bother? It is on their
time, their location, their everything, what about…. you? Suddenly, You
remind yourself all the good times with this person in order to forget about the bad, but this is unfair to
you, great friend. You must learn to confront people when they intentionally or
unintentionally hurt you or else they will go on about their merry lives and
not even think twice of your feelings. After all, you are the one who took the time to understand individuals but
remember, great friend; almost no one will ever do that for you. You are
entitled to your feelings. Just be careful what you do with those feelings. Don’t
say things when you’re angry that you may regret.
Only be this
great friend, great friend, to those
who are equally great back. It doesn't have to mirror exactly who you are, but you know which people have never made you feel any bad feelings. Keep
those close to you. They are the ones who cared enough to know how to have a
relationship with you- a relationship that fulfills you as well as them. We all have our needs and you have
every right to want things in a friendship. Also, when you stop doing so much
for others you won’t have any kind of expectation or let down. You cannot
expect back what hasn't even been given. So just stop. Literally, stop.
“The road to
a friend is never long distance”
Sincerely,
A Great Friend
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