Happiest Depression
The world sees me smiling Never sad can I be No one knows the reality What the truth is for me Inside it's a battle Each time with different triggers First, it starts with anger then it spins down to sadness, the killer But she laughs so much and always smiles how can this be true? Because when someone asks how you are you can't exactly say 'fuck you' Some days are better than others I surprise myself, too When the sunshine in the sky Matches inside my heart and feels really good Suppress the feelings, don't let them show that's what I've taught myself Be what they want to see although no one gives a shit in the end Feeling stuck is the worst Like there's nothing you can do Hopes of being struck are common At least then they can't blame you It can't be healthy thinking these thoughts but what the fuck do I know? I have no hope for this selfish, careless world I just need a place to go -s A fictional poem inspi