Dear J, your suicide changed my entire life
Dear J, 13 years ago tomorrow my entire world changed. Little did I know your life ending actually, somehow, started mine. If I had known the thoughts behind your in-genuine smile, or the plan you were set upon... I would've handled that day differently. I can't go back in time, but I can finally share, publicly, what that day did to me. I remember being restless because it was the Wednesday we were getting interims for school. I couldn't remember if I had done well in science to where I was able to push that D into a C. All day I wondered and hoped I had done well enough. I didn't want a lecture from my parents. Around 2nd period I remember receiving mine and breathing a sigh of relief. I had no D in sight and I was finally able to go on through the day with no worry. Life was great, I thought. You weren't at school that day. You stayed home. I think you were sick. All week prior we had been arguing, just like 15 year old girls do. We shared a best fri