Is it just me?
Is it just me, or do others also get annoyed after a certain amount of time when they notice that with the people in their life it is upon you alone to call, text, ask to hangout, invite places ect?
Is it just me, or do you guys also feel like starting over sometimes in a small town with a coffee shop job, working and being happy with little to none?
Is it just me, or do you sometimes dream of changing your whole outer appearance to just be out of your own comfort zone? They say true living happens when you step outside your comfort.
Is it just me, or do you expect people you call friends to check up on you from time to time just to do so? No reason, no need of something that will benefit them, but just a call or text to say "Hey, how are you?" And waiting upon a real answer versus just a "fine, you?" type deal.
Is it just me, or do you feel the hours and money you are putting into school may not actually pay off? Ever consider that you perhaps won't be hired for that job you think you're working towards?
Is it just me, or do you silently disassociate with anyone or anything that makes you feel left our or not good enough for whatever reason?
Is it just me, or do you wonder about the car next to you? Where this person is headed? Why are they in a rush? Why are they not in a rush? Did they just go through a dramatic experience? Are they part of a large family? Is it weird that I imagine about others?
I'm in a funk lately. I feel annoyed at many people that apparently I expect too much from. Forget talking or confronting certain individuals Each time I do this it turns out to be apologies and promises that never come through. I think I get so incredibly bothered when I feel uncared for in a time of 'need' or 'injury' because I know damn well how much I go out of my fucking way for the few people I felt were worth it. I keep saying no more and I'll do less because I know I'll never receive this treatment back, but during the time THEY need me all that flies out of the window and I just do whatever needs to be done to make my loved ones are happy. But the FEW times I am down or hurt or depressed, I don't see anyone aside from my loving boyfriend who truly GO OUT OF THEIR WAY for ME.
It's not about doing something to get something back. Its a common sense type of thing. Your friend is hurt or saddened because of a life event and you cant even so much as call or offer to come by or ask if this person needs anything? Like, really? I got a few texts from people but it truly felt as if they were more curious as to 'what' happened versus offering a hand. It's fine, though. I don't need people and I don't need shit help. I have myself and my boyfriend whom I live with and my two lil puppies.
Fuck people. I'll keep my distance with everyone as they do with me. Unless of course it's convenient then everyone's around. Cool. Once I am better and able to workout again I will be in that gym more than ever and if people are curious as to why I haven't texted them or hit them up, I simply have one reply. The phone works both fucking ways. You try picking it up sometimes.
This is such an awkward topic because the ones who are in fact guilty of this whether it's with me or anyone else, it's just weird, if you find out how I truly feel and felt during the past few days you can't change that. You can't go back and wish you thought to reach out. Its the kind of stuff you just DO because you WANT to so if people didn't do any of the above mentioned, then it's simply because they didn't want to or had no time for me, so it's a stupid situation. Like, okay?
Some would argue people sometimes don't think about it that way and didn't realize they should've done more or less or whatever, and it's weird to me, like oh, you didn't think someone would appreciate a phone call because you care about them? You didn't think you offering a helping hand would've meant so much to a friend? Forget even me accepting the help or putting anyone else through discomfort, more than likely I would've rejected anyone's help if it was truly a problem for them to come my way but the offer would've been really nice to know that someone is at least willing to.
A text can go a long way when someone is down. One friend in particular as busy as she was seemed to ask me every single day how I was. I am thankful her and I became as close as we are.
That is all.
-ssr
Is it just me, or do you guys also feel like starting over sometimes in a small town with a coffee shop job, working and being happy with little to none?
Is it just me, or do you sometimes dream of changing your whole outer appearance to just be out of your own comfort zone? They say true living happens when you step outside your comfort.
Is it just me, or do you expect people you call friends to check up on you from time to time just to do so? No reason, no need of something that will benefit them, but just a call or text to say "Hey, how are you?" And waiting upon a real answer versus just a "fine, you?" type deal.
Is it just me, or do you feel the hours and money you are putting into school may not actually pay off? Ever consider that you perhaps won't be hired for that job you think you're working towards?
Is it just me, or do you silently disassociate with anyone or anything that makes you feel left our or not good enough for whatever reason?
Is it just me, or do you wonder about the car next to you? Where this person is headed? Why are they in a rush? Why are they not in a rush? Did they just go through a dramatic experience? Are they part of a large family? Is it weird that I imagine about others?
I'm in a funk lately. I feel annoyed at many people that apparently I expect too much from. Forget talking or confronting certain individuals Each time I do this it turns out to be apologies and promises that never come through. I think I get so incredibly bothered when I feel uncared for in a time of 'need' or 'injury' because I know damn well how much I go out of my fucking way for the few people I felt were worth it. I keep saying no more and I'll do less because I know I'll never receive this treatment back, but during the time THEY need me all that flies out of the window and I just do whatever needs to be done to make my loved ones are happy. But the FEW times I am down or hurt or depressed, I don't see anyone aside from my loving boyfriend who truly GO OUT OF THEIR WAY for ME.
It's not about doing something to get something back. Its a common sense type of thing. Your friend is hurt or saddened because of a life event and you cant even so much as call or offer to come by or ask if this person needs anything? Like, really? I got a few texts from people but it truly felt as if they were more curious as to 'what' happened versus offering a hand. It's fine, though. I don't need people and I don't need shit help. I have myself and my boyfriend whom I live with and my two lil puppies.
Fuck people. I'll keep my distance with everyone as they do with me. Unless of course it's convenient then everyone's around. Cool. Once I am better and able to workout again I will be in that gym more than ever and if people are curious as to why I haven't texted them or hit them up, I simply have one reply. The phone works both fucking ways. You try picking it up sometimes.
This is such an awkward topic because the ones who are in fact guilty of this whether it's with me or anyone else, it's just weird, if you find out how I truly feel and felt during the past few days you can't change that. You can't go back and wish you thought to reach out. Its the kind of stuff you just DO because you WANT to so if people didn't do any of the above mentioned, then it's simply because they didn't want to or had no time for me, so it's a stupid situation. Like, okay?
Some would argue people sometimes don't think about it that way and didn't realize they should've done more or less or whatever, and it's weird to me, like oh, you didn't think someone would appreciate a phone call because you care about them? You didn't think you offering a helping hand would've meant so much to a friend? Forget even me accepting the help or putting anyone else through discomfort, more than likely I would've rejected anyone's help if it was truly a problem for them to come my way but the offer would've been really nice to know that someone is at least willing to.
A text can go a long way when someone is down. One friend in particular as busy as she was seemed to ask me every single day how I was. I am thankful her and I became as close as we are.
That is all.
-ssr
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