Sumaira McCloud

*This blog was started in, like, December 2018 and is being updated little by little throughout* *I finished it in 3 different edits. Final one April 2020 LOL* Hiiii!!! I am so excited we are out in the open! I have so much to share about this exciting new chapter. I'm going to organize the hell out of this blog with many, many categories so feel free to read it all or skip around! But first, my thoughts on becoming a mama! Honestly, I've always had mother-like behavior. I dreamt of being a mom and doing it my perfect way. I also always knew I didn't want to enter this chapter until I felt prepared/ready (yeah, yeah, I know, "you're never ready") but what I mean is I had certain goals I wanted to achieve before intentionally stepping into motherhood/taking on a LIFE! I just so happened to be lucky that "my plan" worked out in my favor. WHEN DID WE FIND OUT? We found out Thursday. July 5, 2018 ! My period was 9 days late at this point aaa

The only time in my life where I intentionally ate meal by meal, was during 2013 when I decided to try out the Paelo lifestyle along with working out. It went on for about a year, and I was my most healthy and fit self. Many reasons later I fell off the wagon (moving, body injury, life, etc) and I never quite found my re-start. I am such a person of habit. Good or bad. I fall easily into routine and repeating behavior over and over. There's months where I cook 3x a day and get my life together. Usually accompanied by a workout regime, I've noticed. The last time this occurred was September 2017-January 2018. I was jumping into the world of CrossFit and I found myself back to intentional eating/planning each meal. As usual, when my CF journey came to an end during January 2018, it seemed so did my healthier habits. Slowly but surely I fell back into the very easy fast food life, eating whatever I wanted, grabbing anything that sounded good at that time. I would even wait u

em·path noun a person with the paranormal ability to apprehend the mental or emotional state of another individual. Here's why being an empath fucking sucks, a lot of the times. When you extremely sensitive to energy and feelings, you don't have a choice. You take on a burden many others will never know or understand. Walking into a room and 'feeling' a vibe is not the reality for many people. If you are someone who thinks that is just 'normal, you are MORE than LIKELY an empath. The word is kind of funny; I see it tossed around a lot on social media. I almost hate using it sometimes because it's often made fun of by those who don't understand it. "Oh you feel deeply woohoo cool good for you" <-- It's actually NOT good for us, though. Lol. Here's a very real (and exhausting) example of what goes on inside an empath's mind. Fictional situation: You are pregnant, having a baby shower and your VERY

I need to say something, and it's too long for a Facebook status. I have some thoughts and theories on what leads someone down the path of a drug filled life, addiction, and finally unintentional over dosing. I am against drug usage. Not because I'm a goody two shoes, but because I know the reality of my personality. I am a creature of habit, a person who falls into a quick routine, and someone who likes to repeat the things I enjoy with no limits and boundaries. It's why I smoke hookah every day since 2012. I enjoy it, I like it, and I don't see a reason to quit. (I always said when I'm a mom/pregnant I will def stop because that's a good enough reason lol.) Mac Miller died yesterday on September 7, 2018. I wouldn't be honest if I said I were a fan, because I didn't listen to his music. I did however know the impact he's made on several others and I was sad to hear about his loss. I was even more sad upon finding out it was an accidental