Sumaira McCloud

Graduation is finally over. No more nerves, no more wonderment. Time to move on and work, right?  Here’s the 5 things that will happen upon Graduation that others won’t tell you. 5. You will feel some sort of anxiety, depression, jealousy, or bitterness.  You just completed four hard years of schooling and you feel a sense of entitlement. You earned the right to have good employment with a decent pay. You went through hell for something better, right? But all you can seem to find yourself doing is applying for jobs, hours after hours, answering the same questions over and over, and all you want to do is jump off a huge diving board into a pool of money and food. You see your friends, some who didn’t even attend college, living what appears to be a comfortable lifestyle. You want that, you deserve that, but why can’t you have that? It’s gonna take time. Be patient, keep applying, follow up on the applications. Bug the shit out of those employers and show you’re worthy and

Scrolled on Facebook, Read a story , The more I saw, The more I got worried. Forty-two year old photographer, Took advantage of his space, Taped a young girl undressing, Where she believed was a safe place. The baffling part that I seem to read, Is how many clients are standing beside he. See, loyalty is fine, Although rare to see in the 40’s, But when you are the abuser You no longer are worthy. Some of his friends are truly quite sad, “Models For Mario” is currently their hashtag. Please don’t support your “friend” or abuser, The victims are the people you should be showing love to. Imagine if that was you, Changing clothes for a shoot, But then come to find out, Your innocence is what he salivates to. To the young girl traumatized, I won’t pretend I know your pain, But I hope you understand, It won’t always be the same. Don’t lose all your hope, Or judge every man, Yes there are monsters out there, But you aren’t alone in this clan.

I woke up today, with way too much free time, as I have been for the past seven days or so. I stayed in bed, my little dogs were so confused because usually I get up and have ten thousand things going on. It looks like this normally. 7:30 AM : Get up, pee, brush my teeth and try to open my eyes. 7:40 AM : Go to living room, open up dog crates and follow them to the door to let them outside because they have to pee apparently worse than I did. hahaha. 7:45 AM: Start shower, let it get warm, pick out or try to clothes or adult like things to look normal in the world. 7:50 AM: Start coffee, get out toaster to make toast or boil eggs. something along these lines do something for breakfast. 8:00 AM: Jump into shower 8:15 AM: Jump out of shower (yes I shower pretty quickly, sometimes even faster than 15) 8:20 AM: remember to let dogs in, let them eat too before I leave 8:30 AM: Get stuff together and dress and put on shoes and go over hair and all that stuff. etc etc

Friendships are sometimes more intimate relationships than romantic ones. We share so much with our close friends; it’s easy, effortless and we both become a part of one another. So, what happens when we grow up? The friend you've maybe known longest is slowly becoming the friend you interact with the least. Is it by choice? Because of schedules clashing? Or is it because one of you has stopped trying? Moved away? Changed in habits? It’s easy to point fingers and blame another person for all they do wrong or things they maybe do not do at all. I’ve read tons of articles on friendships and sometimes when the writer says two people grow apart and its natural - I disagree. My view is that people don’t just grow apart; they allow themselves to grow apart. If you don’t see someone for two to three weeks and you miss them, what do you do? Normally, you would find a way to connect and offer a hang out or something of that nature. You reach out and you try to see what plans can b